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Posted on: 03/02/2005
Question
I'm suicidal and depressed. I have previously been depressed for 2 years nearly a year ago. But I never told anyone especially about my suicidal thoughts, I new I wouldn't act on it. I thought I was getting better, but now its back. I have it again and this time instead of just torturing myself mentally and emotionally I have actually been cutting myself. I'm scared I don't want to die and leave those I love to suffer because of me, but I don't want to live. I can't stand this world, but I think its me, I'm sensitive, its stupid. I don't know why I feel like this is it for attention. I want to talk to someone but I don't want anyone to find out and I fear that those I love will find out and it will hurt them. I'm really scared. I even turned to alcohol today to get me through today, but am I just exaggerating. I don't understand. Please help me. But even then what are you going to do, what can anyone do to help me. Its all so confusing. Help if you can but if you can't I totally understand. Just don't tell me to talk to my parents or someone at school because I'm never going to be able to do that.
Answer
We know you keep writing and report you are in emotional pain. We are all very concerned about you but we are too far away to do much. There are adults around that care and will help if you ask and there are hotlines for you to call, people you can reach out to. E-mailing is not an appropriate means to get better. Please do something today to make yourself feel better. You are important!